My Iphone battery began acting up just a couple of weeks before Christmas and so I didn’t pay much attention to it at first….as with all my life problems, big and small, I prayed, I meditated, I put a picture of my favorite Saint over it and “gave it away”…check, check, and check - in most cases, that’s all that is required of me to get over a life challenge….
And so you can only imagine my surprise and wonder when this particular problem didn’t go away! In fact, it worsened !!!
I couldn’t rely on my phone much anymore and it even died on me while I was shopping on Amazon for last minute gifts… the stress, the worry, the anxiety of missing out on important texts and phone calls…UGH! It was AWFUL. I wasn’t aware of the whole battery replacement thing that Apple was doing yet, and thought my phone is done! I figured I will have to deal with it sometime after Christmas and even thought of maybe treating myself to a new (non-Apple) phone for my birthday.
I was forced to put my phone away and learn to cope with extremely limited usage of it and only while connected to the charger cable plugged into the wall (which by the way is way too short to be able to use comfortably when trying to make a phone call). I began relying less and less on my phone, checking it less and less, I unplugged from all social media, stopped checking my email…sometimes I would leave it unplugged somewhere in the house only to find it dead hours later…I almost threw it in the wash along with all the baby laundry one day!
Christmas came and went, all mostly without my phone, and although I don’t have any pictures to prove it – this was my best Christmas yet! Without my phone to keep me occupied and distracted, I had more time to enjoy real face to face conversations with my family, I enjoyed not feeling pulled towards checking my Facebook or email, not feeling the urge to take pictures of everything … a new level of freedom - all while having the perfect excuse that everyone understood: “sorry my phone is dead, It just won’t charge…” is all it took to gain empathy and understanding from the world!
I even had to get dressed in a blizzard one day and walk over to my sister’s cottage down the road to bring her a very important message regarding dinner plans… what would’ve been taken care of by a quick text in the past resulted in her and I sharing a wonderful impromptu meditation session by the fireplace.
January 2 I called AppleCare and the kind loving soul that was helping me -I regret not catching his name – “remotely” diagnosed it to be in fact a battery issue that Apple will be able to help me with at a cost of $35 Canadian…(made me wonder what else he could “remotely diagnose” for me? ) He also booked me an appointment in the nearest city which is about an hour away, to have my new battery installed the next day. I woke up that morning with a feeling in my gut to call the place up and confirm my appointment, and by following my Divine Guidance I found out that they’ve run out of batteries and it will take a couple of weeks for the new shipment to arrive. What would’ve sounded like a death sentence back in the day, has actually turned into me having MORE of a LIFE (and having the time to write this post). My writing was just interrupted a few minutes ago by a phone call that I didn’t need to take, but not to worry as my battery died seconds into it and I was able to get back to my story (and make organic sweet potato and carrot puree for my baby).
I really look forward to more insight and lessons from the Universe in the next two weeks as I await my replacement battery to arrive. It’s been very enlightening so far!
I'll never forget the morning I got "down on my knees" in my heart and asked God to help me quit smoking...
it was in my twenties, I was a new mom, and with my husband away a lot travelling for work, I began smoking more than I had wanted to, more regularly just to get out of the tiny apartment I lived in in the city, and to escape a screaming baby just for a few minutes... it was my only break in the day and I looked forward to it and planned for it wholeheartedly.
The night before this particular day, I was desperate to get out for a quick smoke, despite the fact that it was pouring rain and cold out... so as usual as soon as I fed my son, I turned on a show for him on tv, and made my "escape" onto the balcony , where I stood there in my Crocs, with rain pouring over me, shivering in the cold, worrying about my cigarette getting soaked and going out, peeking inside as my beloved son was captivated and entertained by Dora the Explorer, colourful flashes of screenlight reflecting off his smiling face... and that's when a very new feeling came upon me, a feeling of guilt and shame and disconnect, I felt dirty, I felt disloyal to my son, I felt like a terrible mother...BUT:
The WORST of it was that I felt like a SLAVE, for the first time it dawned on me that I am NOT enjoying this cigarette and that I'm definitely not feeling or looking cool standing outside in the cold rain, shivering, polluting my body..that's when I realized the POWER that I had allowed my "occasional" smoking habit to have over me , and how quickly addiction had snuck up on me, putting me in bondage and taking over my life.
Anyone who's ever smoked knows what I'm talking about: smoking becomes a HUGE burden on the mind, it takes over, one begins to think constantly about their next "break" and planning for the next chance to escape, it affects our ability to be present and to experience our life to the fullest, it affects our ability to enjoy being with our family's and friends, it impacts whom we associate with and the conversations we have with other fellow smokers - which experience has taught me -more often than not turn out to be pity parties and "bitch and complain about life sessions" ... as it's very seldom that one can have an inspiring, uplifting conversation in that environment (and drunken encounters outside of clubs do not count) ,
not mentioning the financial strain it places on individuals and their families !! (Yes, I did my math and it cost me $3,000 per year to maintain my smoking habit) - money that could be spent on other things to benefit us, our family and society...a yearly vacation in Maui is what I personally choose to spent it on these days...
And working in healthcare, I really should have known better than to smoke, after all, I learned ALL about how bad smoking is in school! But being a healthcare provider can be very stressful and it's no surprise to me that so many health care workers do in fact smoke themselves..
And so to continue with my story, the next morning I was going out shopping and began driving down my street while recalling my experience and feelings from the night before ... in particular the awful feeling of being enslaved by my smoking habit was very prominent in my mind. As I neared the end of my street I came up on a big red STOP sign 🛑 and in that very moment something within me prompted me to ask God for help - and I did, it was quick but came from the heart, I asked God to liberate me , to set me free. And then I went to make a right turn onto the main road. I cannot even begin describe the sudden sense of inner peace and calm that came over me, it was truly Divine and beautiful! And from that moment in, it literally felt as if a switch went off in my mind and heart, I no longer craved cigarettes and the addiction was gone. I share this story with my clients at work because even thought there are many treatments and programs that help people quit smoking, I believe that deep heartfelt prayer guided by a genuine desire from the heart ❤️ can sure do the trick as well.
Wishing you a glorious day filled with Purpose, joy and inner peace ,
💜Kamila Larson ~ Author of "Manifest Your Deepest Desires with God" book coming soon!💜 Sign up for my Complimentary Inspirational Newsletter below to receive weekly Uplift and Spiritual Motivation!